~ the dictation of feelings ~

How much do we allow our feelings dictate the moves we make in our lives? Are our feelings a lie? I guess I've always done what my heart told me to do, but after careful consideration of the factors that go into our emotions I can not help but to question whether the choices I've made weren't smart ones because emotions can be so volatile. In todays age of technology we interact with other humans far less, have medications that affect your emotional state, and the constant exposure to worldly issues have changed the way we feel things, respond to things, and just plain experience things. I'm starting a new chapter in my life.. And that's going to be an experiment of tuning out the emotional part of my decision making and using pure logic and reasoning to deduce my options. This is completely new ground for me, so saying it's going to be an experience is putting it lightly.. Change of processes.. uggghh

BaCk At It..

Guess who's bizzack?! Soo at a the suggestion of a friend, I've decided to get back on my blogging. Thinking alot lately about mental illness and all of the worldly issues that are happening. How much of these events are contributed to mental illness? Vitamin deficiencies? Medication side effects? Lack of sunshine? Product toxicities? It's such a tangled web we've woven ourselves into.. Society moving so fast that we don't know what's good for us and what's not before it's too late. It's enough to drive an overthinker crazy. Then again, what's the point? Our time here is a short one. Then we're off to the next level.. hmmm.. THE NEXT LEVEL.. that's a whole other topic in itself, which I'm sure I will get into on a different date.. At the age of 37 I'm approaching the point where I'm questioning my purpose here. What exactly am I supposed to be doing? Am I doing it? Is my creator pleased? How will I ever know if it's the right thing? IS there a RIGHT thing?.. Soo many questions. Too many to put effort into for fear of my mind taking that leap into the other side. So I keep my daily thoughts in check as best as I can. I suppress my curiousity for fear that there really ARE no answers. When you guys find out all the answers to life, let me know ok? ;) Happy Tuesday!