My life in comparison..

Its funny how one minute you can be totally content with your life... until you compare it to anothers. Lately I've been feeling like I'm running circles around myself just to get nowhere. Working to pay bills, paying bills to have food, eating food to be energized for work, and so the cycle continues.. I know money doesn't buy you happiness but it sure does help. When a person's immediate needs are barely being met, it's harder to set your sights on a bigger, more "meaningful" way of living. Getting stuck in a rut can be the worst thing you can do to yourself. Your dreams fade into the mist, being replaced with the unaware, rehearsed routines of everyday living. I want to live again. I want to be excited about something again.. I want my children to know something other than "tired mommy" coming home from work complaining that she can't get anything done. I want to be aware of my place in the world again. I need to breathe..